Today is one of those days where it’s hard to wrap my mind around how I’m going to survive as a stay-at-home Mom when #2 arrives.
I can barely walk from overdoing it yesterday at the hospital, chasing Lucy around while waiting (in vain) to see my OB. Lucy is sick with a cold–luckily nothing serious (knock on wood)–and she’s got a runny nose and is congested and having a hard time breathing and is just sort of miserable, which makes her perpetually cranky and whiny and unsatisfied with any type of food, item of clothing, toy, book, etc. that I give her. And I’m tired. I’m so, so very tired, because I do not sleep much these days. I’m huge, and Lil Bean’s riding way low, and I’m up to pee at least three times a night, and then I can’t get comfortable, and then Lucy wakes up crying because she can’t breathe. And…oh my God, I sure can whine, can’t I?
I have a fabulous life. I am lucky to have the option to be home with Lucy (and soon Lil Bean, too) for the time being. I am lucky to have a wonderful daycare provider who helps me out a couple of days a week with Lucy when I need to be at doctor’s appointments, stress tests, etc.
But despite the knowledge that things could be oh-so-much worse, I cannot seem to keep my head above water lately. I’m sure it’s probably just the lack of sleep and soreness and pregnancy hormones catching up with me…overwhelming me. (Right?) God, I hope that’s what it is. Every day lately feels more like a large obstacle in my path–something I have to just get through–rather than something to enjoy, minute-by-minute. And I don’t like that. I don’t like feeling that way or having that mentality. It’s so counter to how I like to try to approach life.
What will resuscitate me? I need to have some life breathed back into me.
-Em
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I’m sorry. It seems like so little to offer you but, it’s all I’ve got. You can whine all you need to…being WAY pregnant (not that I’m speaking from experience) and having a sick toddler – honey you have EARNED the right to whine and whine on top of whine! Hang in there…you have a whole new version of tired headed your way! You’re gonna need that energy to whine even more then!
Comment by Gail Elenbaas Harper September 23, 2011 @ 12:07 pmHi embo! Sounds like you could use some “you” time alone- maybe treat yourself to a pedicure or something so you can get out alone and relax a little. Plus remember mom will be there to help at first! You’ll make it through & afterwards look back & not be able to imagine life w/out 2! Hang in there! Love you.
Comment by Becky September 23, 2011 @ 12:23 pmYou’ll find that you have all that you need when you need it!!! That may seem more like a riddle than an answer, but somehow it seems to fit
You’ll do beautifully with 2 kids! I believe that with every fiber of my being! Also, I think that when you get to hold your lil Bean for the first time, that’ll be all of the resuscitation that you’ll need 
Hang in there!
Comment by Janet September 23, 2011 @ 1:10 pmHang in there lady! You are a stong woman and I know you can do it. Yes- you can be honest – truthful and even if that means complaining right now. I’m sure that is overwhelming. Your lil bean will be here soon! I agree that you need some alone time. Use your daycare and go for a pedi or mani or something! Prayers for you coming your way!
Comment by CaSondra Shim September 23, 2011 @ 3:14 pmTowards the end of my pregnancy with Hutt I remember sitting in a chair crying and Collin walking in and I said to him, I don’t think I can do this much longer. The end of those 9 months is HARD, add a curious, mobile, and not feeling well toddler to the mix and well, it’s almost impossible. Oddly, I thought life at home after Baby #2 arrived was easier than life at home while very pregnant with Baby #2 and trying to contain #1. Hang in there! It will get better. In the meantime, feel free to vent. And I aree, you need some me time. How ’bout a bath? I never got to take one before going into labor with Hutton and it’s still something I regret. Love you!
Comment by Kate September 23, 2011 @ 3:37 pmEmber, The last month of pregnancy is the worse. You are always tired. You feel fat and ugly. You are running to the bathroom constantly. And in your case, running after a toddler and now she is sick and needs you and you are wiped out. You have a right to whine. I did my share of whining let me tell you and yes I sometimes cried too! The hormones are working over time and messing with your emotions too. Try to rest when ever possible and let Drew know what you need, he maybe could take Lucy on a walk or do something fun while you catch a nice long nap tomorrow. I don’t know if any of this helps but hang in there you are almost there. I will help as much as I can when I get there. Love you, Mom
Comment by Dale Sullivan September 23, 2011 @ 4:43 pm